Caffeine

I was driving home today after picking Sarah up from school, trying to stay focused on the road. You see even though Amanda is now sleeping through the night (most of the time) and I'm not getting up with her on a regular basis, I'm still not getting enough sleep. Now, instead of going to bed at 11p, our regular bedtime has been creeping closer and closer to midnight, and maybe surpassing it several nights a week as well.

So I was driving and thinking about what I could do to get more energy. Oh, I thought, I'll grab a caffeine-free Diet Coke when I get home. Maybe the fake sugar will give me a little lift. Then it hit me. I'm not nursing anymore. I can drink REAL Diet Coke. You know, the stuff with caffeine in it.

What, you ask, you don't drink caffeine? Nope. Not at all. I never was a coffee drinker because I saw what it did to my mom growing up and I cut most of it out when I was trying to get pregnant with Amanda and then cut it out completely when I did get pregnant. Then after she was born I didn't drink it because I have a very bad story about when I accidentally drank a large glass of Root Beer that I thought was caffeine-free when Andy was six days old and I will never, ever do that again. So I haven't had caffeine for a very long time.

Let me tell you, it was awesome. I only drank one, because even though it was only 2p I didn't want to be up all night, but it was amazing. My afternoon was so much clearer, I was so focused, so awake.

A silver lining to the I'm so sad I'm not nursing feeling. I may be over it.